"Life isn't about surviving the storm...it is about learning to dance in the rain." Anonymous

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

A Month of Remembering...

So, most of you know that October is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month.  There are events happening all over the country during the month of October.  Our Atlanta Walk to Remember will be held on October 16th.  With that said, we think it would be a great idea to dedicate the month of September to introducing ways that you can memorialize your baby.  I am going to try to post a new idea every day or at least every other day during the month.  If you have any ideas or if you would like to share something that you and your family did to remember your baby, please email us and we will post it for others to know about. 

Our babies are never forgotten. 

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Fertile Thoughts, anyone??

My dear friend who lost her baby last year asked me when was the best time to think about having another baby.  She is terrified, hopeful, excited...all in one.  My answer to that question is "Only you know when and if you want to try again." 
I remember after my loss that I was obsessed with being pregnant again.  When I say obsessed, I mean it!  I literally exhausted myself counting cycle days and watching for pregnancy symptoms...and nothing happened.  I don't know if it is because my loss happened 18 weeks before my due date or if that is the way most people feel, but that is how I felt.  I think in the back of my mind I thought that if I could be pregnant before that due date in April, that I would be OK.  Sounds wierd...especially as I am typing this.  But, it is how I felt and I have stopped trying to overanalyze the multitude of irrational thoughts I had after my baby died. 
After April came and went, the urgency lessened.  Looking back on that time, I am glad that I did not get pregnant then.  For me, I really needed the time to heal.  But, everyone is so different. 
As a nurse practitioner, I used to work in a gyn office and I can remember taking care of so many pregnant patients who had lost a previous baby.  What I remember is their fear and anxiety. 
This is what I have come to know:  those of us who have lost a precious child have taken a walk on the dark side--that other side of labor and delivery that does not have a happy outcome.  We, in a sense, have become a part of a group of people, a sorority of sorts, who have experienced firsthand the awful devastation of loss.
So, whether or not a pregnancy comes sooner or later, or not at all, is really up to each person.  The fear will be there and that is normal.  Until you hold a healthy, live baby in your arms, the fear is going to be there.  You just have to try not to let it consume you, because it is out of your control. 
Someone sent me the link to a story the other day that I LOVE!!  Here is the link: 
You may have already read it, but I had not.  It was written by the mother of a child with Down's Syndrome, but I think it applies to so many things in life, especially to those of us who live with the loss of our sweet babies every single day.